Myfirst bouquet of Yellow flowers from the love of my life...

love of my life, at his happiest...

As a symbol of joy and new beginningsYellow roses offer a congratulatory tone to celebrate success, new beginnings as well as joyous occasions. This happy vibe that these yellow roses give our makes them a perfect gift for new mothers, newlyweds, graduates as well as co-workers who have gotten a promotion

So after exactly 12weeks my love and I lost Peanut (that is what I was calling the little bunddle of joy growing inside of me), as sad as it might be at times, he has been a terrific rock to depend on... Honestly I could not have asked for a better partner, I would never have guessed that he would turn out to be so perfect...

Oh not that I am saying he comes without flaws.. We all have flaws and his are what make him human, as are mine so I have no right to judge him for that... In fact I love him for being honest and so naturally head over heels with me... **lollies who wouldn't be**

But seriously this man has gone above and beyond to make sure I am happy and that I am not too upset about losing Peanut... And sometimes it seems as if he wanted the baby more than I did... He made a comment the other day and said: "But baby, whatever upsets you automatically will also upset me... Your happiness is more important to me than anything."

I have nerver in my life been in such a serious relationship, and yes I had relationships but none of them were this rewarding and this special. I wake up every morning hoping for the rest of mhy life... I envisage the day I say I do and kiss him as my husband, and honestly he says the same thing...

the sweetest thing while we were chatting the other night he looked at me and said: "I could live like this, I can see you in the kitchen cooking up a storm, with a spoon in your hand, giving me a kiss when I come through the door, kids shouting daddy, and th dog bringing me the paper... all this while you are pregnant..."

Now if someone has such a visual of me then there is just no way I could believe that this isn't real...

GGG. you are so special, and if you could see you the way I see you then you would believe me and stop doubting it...

Anyways Peanut is in a better place being looked after by the angels... Peanut I loved you more than you could ever know... Hope you are happy where you are mommy and daddy loved you, because you were very special to us, even if we didn't meet you...

Ciao chicks... xoxo